I find I cannot sleep. Not yet anyway. Why not write another essay. A healthy way to express what I might find interesting, intriguing, fascinating, bizarre, obscure, unique, weird, spooky, horrifying, terrifying. Lots of stuff to discuss. Keep in mind I tackle one thing at a time. If I want to discuss what’s spooky, I stick to spooky shit in that particular essay. My roommate is munching on cheez-its and good for him. He’s gaming some and I tried, but I’m not as good as he is, so I end up losing. And I don’t like to lose. I’m competitive in the sense that I also want to win. No money is involved, it’s solely for entertainment.

I learn to create these individuals. Real people. I make these fictional creations real. How? I think it comes down to the little details. For me, the nuances speak volumes in the reader’s imagination. How does this character think? How would this character handle circumstances both dramatic and intense? Day to day living. Routines, habits. Friends? Family? Co-workers? A bum?

It’s fun for me because I love to create. I have a passion for making up stories that are of value. For whatever they are worth, I do my best to produce something I’m proud of. To share with the public what I feel was a solid attempt at coming up with a final product fit for consumption. My hopes are that it will be, in time, an outlet that others enjoy. I would be grateful if people love what I write. The fiction I create. I need to bust ass on my fiction novel, ANARCHY IN AMERICA. Get it done, publish it. See what happens. Then on to the next one.

I’m hesitant to read anything. And, the worst part is, I can’t say why I lack a desire to read. Oh well. I do what I can. As do we all. What else? We sometimes can’t do things. And that may not be right, either. But it is what it is. I wish there were a better saying for that. Things are the way the are- until they change. Change can bring hope. Deliver the faith that good things will happen. What we can do will matter more. I believe in that. I believe good things are on the horizon.

I plan to buy several books soon. To have them when the time comes for me to love reading again. I also believe supporting artists/authors/poets/writers is of vast importance to a thriving community. By writing these essays another hope of mine is to better connect with you all in the community, be you a writer, reader, or both.

Have a great evening, or morning.

Philip Webb- 9:27pm, September 13th, 2022