The past couple days I’ve gotten zero views. I’ve written several essays in this time frame. It upsets me that no one seems to care. From what I could see, people were reading my articles and essays. Now I have no idea what happened.

Someone told me that the social media system might be designed to keep smaller voices unheard. In fact that’s something I’m writing about in my current project. This concept that people who may offer something unique will never be found as an independent creator.

There’s a couple other theories I have. One might be that people don’t like me, and do not want to support my endeavors. I’ve pissed off a lot of people on social media with my behavior. Eventually a person will say “fuck this”, and no longer support. That’s hardly radical- in fact this tactic makes logical sense. I’m my own worst enemy. Maybe someday I can change that up.

The other theory is that people just aren’t that interested in what I have to say. Either what I say makes no impact, or people won’t give me the time of day, regardless. This theory also makes logical sense. I don’t want to believe I lack relevance to some people, but in reality I’m sure that some people find me boring or irrelevant. I think it’s worse to have pissed certain people off, because when you piss someone off, that person pretends I don’t exist. Being irrelevant isn’t as awful for some reason.

I don’t think it has much to do with the design of social media. I tend to think it has more to do with my presence on social media. How I’ve screwed myself and burned bridges. Mixed with being boring.

I could crawl into a dark hole and wait to die. Instead I choose to keep trucking along. The more I write the better I become as a writer. I want to be the best writer I can be. I want to push my limits- to continue to learn, adapt, thrive. My design is to write. Not 24/7, I’m not a machine: enough to make an impact within my own betterment.

Until next time,

Philip