I have to keep going. I can’t give up because I have psychotic breakdowns.
Its the most difficult thing for me to understand, that, I am so alone in this world.
That’s why I decided to go by Scorpion. I feel like that dude. Walking around hell and what not.
I don’t know what the deal is with the collaborations. I’m still down to continue work, although I had a psychotic breakdown, therefore one or both of the people may not want to continue work with me. I get that. I’m not mad about it, if it goes that way.
Having an intense mood disorder is the toughest part of my life. I’m my own worst enemy, and that sucks. But, I can’t change it. All I can do is try to speak with someone in person or on the phone and vent. Twitter isn’t the place to vent, which, ok, fine.
Twitter isn’t a bad place, it isn’t a good place. It’s a place where people share thoughts and ideas, memories or anecdotes. I dig that, but I’m not able to compute. It’s just not possible for me.
I keep telling myself, “stick with these posts and fiction books”. Read stories and such. Watch more entertaining stuff.
I’ll keep bouncing back.
I can be the bad guy, and I’m never proud of that. I hate being the bad guy. It’s the worst, and I hate when I am.